Ridiculous Thoughts of Today....

Here are the ridiculous thoughts I had today:

I wish I could hurry up and meet someone. I know I am in no way ready to do that. But meeting someone would be a great distraction from these emotions!

There are no good men out there in my age range (which I determined while thinking about this was between 32 and 42) that are single. The good ones are taken. A divorce was likely because the MAN was a jerk. So now he is free and available. So the only way I will find a partner that is a good guy is if he wife dies. How awful is that?

This fear is reinforced by the fact that i can only think of four single guys in my age range:

Man 1: Age 40. Unemployed, possible alcoholic with 2 DUI's
Man 2: Age 34: Ditched by his wife who was the jerk. Now has his parents watching his kid while he constantly parties.
Man 3: Age 36: An awful lot of quirks.
Man 4: Age 37: recently divorced under questionable circumstances

My friends don't seem to know anyone who is single in this age range so I don't think it is just me.

My hair is stringy and I am funny looking.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.