Go Figure

Yesterday I may have crashed but today was great. Go figure.

I was able to articulate that I don't actually miss my husband. I miss having someone to watch the kids while I run and get a coffee or go on a hike. I believe I may just need a reliable babysitter.

My son had his first soccer practice and loved it. Got the schedules for both kids' soccer games and what do you know...most of them conflict. Go figure. Well this gives me the opportunity to ask for help. We will see how that goes.

On a positive note my daughter's therapist was able to get us a regular friday at 5pm appointment and another therapist will meet with my son at the same time. This takes a huge weight off my shoulders. This is a trauma therapist, instead of an attachment therapist. Could an attachment therapist be better? Sure. But I am no good to anyone if I lose my job and lose my mind.

Since i was able to articulate I don't miss my husband, guess who texted out of the blue? Yep, my husband. Apparently he has made some headway on locating a therapist and is going to a meditation class. Hmmm.

I feel guilty that I don't miss him. But then I remind myself that his behavior was not worth missing.

What will tomorrow bring?