Well today I don't feel ugly, a result of wearing the sweater I purchased the day after I realized my husband was gone. A little retail therapy never hurts..
Last night, he sent an email to ask if I wanted him to call the kids. I said yes. When he called I took him into the other room and asked him why he does not even put a greeting in his email or text. Like, "Hi, how are you? Should I call the kids tonight?" Or (gasp!) "i miss you. Should I call the kids tonight?" Or, and this is way out on a limb "I love you. Should I call the kids tonight?"
He said that he does not know how I am feeling and thinks I may be angry so he does not know how I would take such pleasanties.
I told him that yeah, I am angry. But that does not give him permission to not be nice to me. (if anything, it gives me permission to be rude to him).
I have all of these things that I cannot help wondering...
Does he love me anymore? Does he even care about me? Is he going to come back? When would he come back if he comes back? Do I take him back?
My friend said he is so selfish he is only concerned with himself. Instead of thinking "jerk!" I am thinking "so then that means he must not love me?"
We all want to be loved. I am no exception. I want him to love me.
This sucks.
Oh, I forgot to mention, he took a side trip on his way to his dad's house. Must be nice to have the freedom to take five days to get 22 hours away. It costs me $10 an hour to go anywhere without a kid right now.
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