Crush

I have a crush on a guy even though I know it is to soon.

I actually don't want to have a crush on anyone. I don't find it fun, I find it kind of nerve wracking. All that wondering if he could be at all interested in me....which is ridiculous because I am not ready to start something new and I know that!

With my husband I had comfort and convenience and now I have hope. Hope that I could one day find someone who would find being a part of my family to be something to be excited about and look forward to. I want to feel like we are an asset. Not a liability.

Is it even called a crush when you are 37?

Should I say something like "there is a guy that I would like to get to know better?"

That sort of sounds less scary.