My stomach has been questionable since thursday night. On thursday I never got around to eating until around 9pm so I figured that was the issue. But then friday but stomach felt lousy. And yesterday and now today.
I may have gotten some bug. Or eaten something that did not agree with me. It might be the "time of the month".
Since it is now three and a half days since it began, I am starting to wonder if it has something to do with my crush. Or to do with possibility.
Possibility is exciting. But it is also scary.
I am seeing that i have a "type". How weird is that after not thinking about these things for 17 years. I am at the coffee shop right now and was sitting next to a guy who was tall, lean, attractive. Maybe a bit younger than me. I like tall. I like thin.
Typing that gives me a stomachache.
It is interesting that I am not having trouble getting over the relationship so much as I am struggling with the kids. Which also gives me a stomachache. How do I help THEM get to a good place? A place with less anger. More acceptance.
And then I realize that I cannot get them to that place until I have a better idea of what to tell them which I don't have until my husband provides me with some insight. Will he be back? Not in the house but in the state? The unknown is probably worse for them then anything. I know. I can relate.
I did change a light bulb yesterday. For the first time in probably my adult life.
Welcome to the world of possibility!
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