Tough Conversation

Yesterday I had a tough conversation with my husband. As I posted last night, it had been an emotional day. I had been feeling down about my physical appearance and that made me angry with. my husband. I should not have to have these concerns. I was also thinking about my friend's offer to organize the garage and my crushes' comment about my husband ever getting his own place. Yes I was concerned that I would lose the free babysitting he provided and yes I was concerned he would just disappear on the kids when faced with having to get a place. But his getting a place is not unreasonable and I would do better without him around.

When I arrived home he was there as he had picked up the kids. I asked him about getting his own place. He said he is "trying to save money right now". My husband is always trying to save money. This have not been an area where he has been real successful. Not sure how he will be now as he actually has to pay rent and a car payment, I had previously covered all of these things. I told him that I need him to work on that because I reasonably need space from him. I then asked for a timeframe on cleaning the garage. He went on about how busy he was...can he imagine how busy I am being that I work full time and am fully responsible for the kids? I am not even sure that he is a full time employee! He ultimately agreed to clean it out within six weeks. Time will tell.

I mentioned to him that this was hard for me and he went on about how "he wished he could explain it to me so I understood..." I told him that it is not that I did not understand. What frustrates me is how he seemed to not be concerned with how his actions would and did affect the rest of us.

After our talk I was energized and cleaned the house.