Stability?!

I have concluded that it takes 90 days to stabilize from this kind of thing. I am starting to be more productive at work. I am more emotionally stable. I actually feel happy a lot of the time!

I have been playing with internet dating. I had initially set up a profile to see that their were single men out there. I did not pay much attention to it. A few days back I got an email from someone and answered back for the heck of it. Well, several email later, I KNOW that he is not a fit for a future partner.

I noticed someone else on the site and thought "what the heck"? and sent him an email. Very honest and simple. I said I am not interested in rushing into anything. Just making a friend and if something happens, great. If he never answers, that is cool.

Not feeling desperate is nice : )

I actually signed up to attend a hike tonight with the meet-up group my friend convinced me to join. It would up being cancelled, but at least I actually signed up. Maybe next time I will get to go.

I still have a crush on the same guy. Because I am feeling pretty good about myself right now, I am frustrated that he is not expressing interest. Because he should, right?  I think I am a good catch!  Yet somewhere in my mind, I know it is better. Maybe in a few months he will notice me and I will be in a place to be noticed. I feel ridiculous being ready after only three months. But this was a long time coming. Regardless, I am enjoying my time being single. Right now, my (ex)husband is watching the kids and I am relaxing at the coffee shop. He is getting to deal with the discipline as my son called me a moron last night and drew on his wall with black marker. I am glad I don't have to spend time with someone.

If you know anyone going through this type of thing, let them know that 3 months into it, things will likely be a LOT better!