Happy Birthday

Plenty to update...my birthday was on Friday of last week and I turned 38..the day before I went to dinner with a friend and her husband. I took Friday off and got to go on a 27 mile bike ride which was awesome! My longest in some time. I did some shopping for the camping trip we were going on the next day as well as for a small BBQ that night for my birthday and the birthdays of two friends.

The BBQ was nice. My crush did not come, which was a bummer but also a relief. After the get together things got interesting.

One of my friends has been interested in having me meet someone she knows through work who is divorced and interested in deleting people. She had wanted to set us up on a blind date which he was uncomfortable with. She came up with an idea and so a plan had been set for us to meet in a casual environment with a focus in order to eliminate as much awkwardness as possible.

She was telling our other friend about the meeting. It might get complicated here so i am going to assign letters to the two men involved to identify them. We will call my "crush"  "O". We will call the set up guy "M".

Apparently she said something about how she thought that O and I could be a good match but that I did not seem interested in O, possibly because of discomfort of our working together. So she wanted me to meet M. Funny because I feel like my crush on O is written all over my face.

Because this is how I operate, I started to panic. What if O has been telling my friend he is interested and she is telling him to look elsewhere because I am not.  I am sure M is cool and ultimately M may be a great match (or not). But I am definitely interested in O. Honestly I can care less about dating
right now unless I am thinking about O. Since M comes highly recommended I will meet him. But
the online stuff is not appealing. I don't need to go seeking a guy. At least not today.

So I email my friend and let her know that I heard from our other friend that she felt that while O and I could be a good match, that I was not interested in O. I told her that I actually am interested in O. I
told her how I came across his profile online on one of the dating sites the night before and that actually reinforced my feelings. It was funny because I did not even realize it was O until I got to the rest of his photos. It sounded like him but I did not click on it knowing it was him.

I bit my nails in nervousness waiting to hear from my friend. Fortunately I had a camping trip
planned with the kids so I was busy,  Again because of the way my mind works, I was convinced that she must know if O was interested in me. Why I would assume that I don't know. She and O are good friends. But so are she and I and I'd had not told her!

So I was convinced I would hear back with a yay or a nay. Which of course I didn't.  She asked if I wanted her to confirm that he was not seeing anyone. She said assuming he wasn't she thought I should tell him I am interested. She feels if he is not interested, because he is a great guy, he will be
nice about it.

Awkward. Feels like high school.

So I am waiting for her to ask. No hurry mind you. Because I am not sure I can really tell him how I feels.

Camping, by the way, was awesome. We went to a lake and camped there. We met friends and all the kids swam in a lake and then we went on a little hike to a river and played in the river. The kids had a blast. We are going on another adventure with these folks in July.  I felt good about being able to set
up our tent and get us set up. The best part was at the end when my friend's husband said it sure was easier with three adults. I had felt like they were doing me a favor inviting me. Turns out I was able to help!






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