Today I got copies of the separation papers that have now been filed with the court. I suppose I am officially separated. Huh.
The kids have behaved decently this week. It is everyone else driving me nuts. A friend planned some ridiculous birthday extravaganza that was going to cost me a fortune and an entire day. And some stress. Tried to do only a part of it at the risk of her wrath. She wound up cancelling at the last minute. Huh.
The friend with the new baby is going on about how if/when her mom moves she will have to quit her job because she is unwilling to send her baby to daycare. Must be nice to have options. Remember I supervise her and her leaving causes me a lot of work. I lose my friend and one of my better employees. What drives me nuts is how clueless she is about how saying the things she is saying is making me crazy. All she can see are her own "problems". Her "problems" are things many of us never had in the first place so it is hard to sympathize. I am sorry that your mother cannot be your child are provider forever. But heck my mother provided child care ummm... Never. I am sorry that "gasp" your child would have to go to daycare. Just like mine. But see I don't have the option to stay home. Even if my now Ex paid the full child support $700 is not enough to live on per month. Oh and I can't get on his health insurance. Don't tell me I never know and that someone could just offer me a new job for 80k. That is absurd. I try and think positive but let's be just a bit realistic. Don't make crap up that you think will make me feel better. Don't just lie! Empathizing is not that hard. You can say "I see what you mean" or I can see how it feels like you have no options". But do not lie. Friend does not invite me to do stuff. Just throws out these vague "we should get together" comments. But then I have to follow up. I invited her to several things going on but she could not attend because she has the baby. But she somehow found it necessary to throw out that she has plans with some other girl who just had a baby. So really friend, you are so adverse to mommy clubs huh?
I still have a crush on the same guy and try as I might I cannot stop having the crush. The guy is clueless. Seriously. Even if he liked me it would never go anywhere because he makes me look agressive and I have NEVER even asked a guy out. Yeeesh.
My mother emailed me that a friend of hers would be calling me because she has adopted kids and been through the things i am going through and could be a great resource blah blah. The kids are not really the problem. It is the end of my relationship that is hard. It is not having a partner and having to do all of this myself that is hard. This lady may have adopted but that is where the story diverges, thanks mom for the help.
That is enough ranting. Off to bed....
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