One of the nice things about being a relatively anonymous blogger is that I can share all the
thoughts I may struggle to say out loud.
So here goes...
I still have my crush and it is sort of FUN.
I think, though am not sure, that we may even be flirting a bit. Hehe.
Biggest problem is we work for the same company. Could be awkward. As with any crush and likely relationship, there are positives and negatives about him. We sure have a lot in common, plenty to talk about, similar thoughts of plans for the future, kids close in age. He is one of those people you don't necessarily think is good looking until you know him and then he becomes extremely attractive. I sometimes feel like we are doing this sort of dance...two adults with interest who are afraid to put it out there...and then I think maybe that is wishful thinking on my part...that I am seeing something that is not really there. That he has thought of me as a friend only.
Though perhaps frustrating, the good news is that there is no hurry. He is far from an aggressive guy. If anything is to happen, it will take some time to do so. I know this is good, as putting some space between my marriage and something new is important. I would never want to hurt this guy, who has been through plenty himself. Should he have any interest, I am sure he is afraid. I know I am.
So I am going to do the best I can to enjoy having these feelings, which I have not had in years and years. And I will try and enjoy the fantasy that comes with it, reminding myself that the reality is likely very different.
And most importantly, I will remember that no matter what happens, I will ultimately be just fine.
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